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Tuesday, April 28, 2015

ALL THE RAGE APRIL: Guest Post from Kelly



Hello, everyone!

Today is our last guest post of the month! I can't believe it's almost over. This has been such an incredible month and I'm so thankful to have had such amazing people contributing.

It's an extra special guest post today from my lovely best friend Kelly. She is the person who first introduced me to Courtney's books, so I basically have her to thank/yell at for all the awesomeness/pain I've been through. As usual, Kelly has written a beautiful post so I hope you guys will check it out.

I was 19 when I first read a Courtney Summers novel. I was still a teenager, but a few years out of high school, a few years more sure of myself and who I was and who I wanted to be. A few years removed from the lives of the girls on the pages. But I remember the feeling of being stunned, dumbstruck, by the real and raw and unapologetically honest way in which these girls were portrayed. They were flawed and they were hurt and, yeah, they could be downright cruel sometimes. But I recognized some part of myself in them. And I couldn’t remember ever reading about girls quite like them at the time—the “unlikeable” girls.

But these are the kind of novels I wish I had had when I was in high school. Because for the first time I had been forced to acknowledge something lingering on the edge of my unconsciousness, pushed down and denied over and over again: that I cannot always be the “likeable” girl, and the world does not accept that. And that was something I struggled with in high school. Trying to figure out who I was when everyone kept telling me I was one thing, and I should be another thing, but I felt that I was this other thing. More and more I started to rely on books, as an escape, and as a way to explore who I was as a person. And I wish I had found that book in high school that told me I could be complicated and contradictory and that was okay in the way that reading a Courtney Summers novels did.

I’ll admit that I was a little hesitant when I heard what All the Rage was about. I mean, we all know that Courtney Summers is master at breaking hearts, and what’s more heartbreaking than a book about a world that lets down girls (I have this thing where I have to prepare myself mentally for, like, weeks before I can pick up a Courtney Summers book, even though they’re always brilliant).

I don’t know what it’s like to be Romy. I don’t know what it’s like to be in her position. But I know what it’s like to be 15, to still feel like such a kid but forced to face the fact that the world is so willing to take advantage of you just because you’re a girl. I know what it’s like to be 15, to hear that someone has done that unspeakable thing to your friend, but she must have been asking for it because she was drinking, right? I know what it’s like to go to the school counsellor asking for help for your friend and to be told that they are not equipped to handle issues like that, and, sorry, that’s just the way it is.

I know what it’s like to be young and unsure of yourself and to hear that the world does not think your problems are important enough or real enough, and to sit there and accept that because it seems like it just is what it is and, well, no one has stood up to tell you any different.

I’m much older now, and with age and maturity has come the ability to recognize and call out this kind of bullshit for what it is. And I’m forever thankful for Courtney Summers’ books for pushing me to be able to do that in the first place.

Teenage girls are probably some of the most resilient people I have ever met. So much of our world is designed to break them, push them down, and tell them the things they like, the things they do, the people they are are worthless. And yet, they continue on, they fight back, and they speak out. They survive.

I’m a writer at heart. I write about teenage girls. Because teenage girls matter. Because teenage girls have voices worth hearing. Because no one should be told that they’re not important. - Kelly
Thank you, Kelly, for that wonderful post.

Tomorrow, I talk about my personal thoughts on All the Rage and it's importance.

- Ciara (Lost at Midnight)

Monday, April 27, 2015

ALL THE RAGE APRIL: Guest Post by Jess from Read My Breath Away


Hello, all!

We're down to are last few days of ALL THE RAGE APRIL! I can't believe how fast this month has flown by! If you missed any of the wonderful posts this month, check them all out here.

Today on the blog, I have another one of my fellow Ottawa Bloggers (y'all are incredible, just sayin), Jess from Read My Breath Away, talking about how society fails girls. Check out her post below:
When Ciara asked me if I wanted to write a post for this wonderful celebration of Courtney Summers and All the Rage, my first thought was about all the ways in which we as a society tend to discredit and abandon young women when they need us most and how, while we most definitely do it with our actions, it's almost more dangerous the way we do it with our words.

Think about any news article you've ever read about a sexual assault/abuse case wherein the victim was a young woman. Now think about the kind of language that was used by anyone discussing that case. Look at the words used within the article, in the comments (because we all know the internet rule "DON'T READ THE COMMENTS" and yet somehow we all find ourselves drawn to that fiery rage pit anyway, don't we?), and in outside discussion on the news or talk shows or on social media. There may be a few things that stick out.

Things like: Questions about the girl's behaviour - what was she wearing, was she drinking, was she alone, did she say no?

Things like: are we sure this is true, did she make this up, is she lying?

Things like: she probably wanted it, I bet she liked it, she was asking for it. 

And if the girl is lucky enough to see some sort of justice served against her attacker, we see things like: that poor boy, he had such a bright future ahead of him, this is going to follow him around now, how unfair for him. 

What are we saying to young women if this is how we talk about sexual assault? What are we doing, teaching them that this is how you react when a girl tells you that she has had this wrong committed against her? Why are we turning young women against each other, teaching them to turn their backs on one another and leading by example? Why are we telling our girls to keep their mouths shut because if you speak, your options boil down to being branded a liar or being blamed for your own abuse?

Here is where I say thank god for Courtney Summers. For Courtney Summers and for the other incredible people who write about and speak out for our girls. Thank god for books like All the Rage because it asks all these questions I'm asking. When you read that book, it gives you a glimpse into the life that girls are now suffering through because of the way our society treats them. And it makes you mad. It makes you care. It makes you want to stand up and demand that these things change. It makes you never want to let another stupid comment about a girl in this heartbreaking position fly ever again.  And if more people read books like All the Rage, more people would think twice before blaming a victim or defending an abuser. With every person who refuses to engage in that kind of behaviour, we are one step closer to saving our girls.

On what I thought was a very appropriate note, here is basically a visual representation of my internal reaction to the kind of things people say when girls dare to speak out about a wrong done against them (and what I wished I could actually do more than once while reading how people responded to Romy in All the Rage):

http://sweetdreams-mylove.tumblr.com/post/108472667266/minimalistfish-hawkgirl-in-the-impala

I'd just like to end on this: we MUST stop blaming the girls. We really need to shut up and listen to them, support them however we can, and lift them up when they need it most instead of making things even harder for them. We have a long way to go, but remember that even just being aware of how you're responding when talk about these issues comes up can make a difference. Read All the Rage and books like it. Gain that perspective. And let's stand with the girls, instead of against them. 
Thanks for the amazing post, Jess! (And for that gif set which will forever pop into my head now when I'm angry).

- Ciara (Lost at Midnight) 

Thursday, April 23, 2015

ALL THE APRIL: Guest Post by Indigo from Adventures in YA Fiction



Hello, lovely readers!

Welcome to another day of ALL THE RAGE APRIL! Today on the blog, I have the wonderful Indigo from Adventures in YA Fiction talking about reading Courtney Summers for the first time. Check it out!

All the Rage was my first Courtney Summers book. Now, when I admitted this to a bookish friend, I swear to god I thought she was going to either slap me, or pass out in front of me. For so many, Courtney is such a staple in their YA library, but for some reason I just hadn’t gotten around to reading any of her books. But for some reason, there was just something about All the Rage that I knew it would be special. And even though Romy’s story is hard hitting and raw, and so very real, I think that it’s Courtney and her fantastic story telling that made it so special.

While I knew All the Rage was going to be special, I was still nervous that maybe the subject matter wouldn’t be conveyed properly. It was a real fear of mine, and I had no idea what to expect going into it. But I was so happy when I read that first chapter. From those first few pages, I could tell that Courtney was not in the business of telling a cliched story, or writing something that could be tossed aside. No, she was going all in. I got the impression that no matter what, if Courtney was going to tell this story, she was going to tell it right.

One thing that really stuck out to me, was Courtney’s use of minimalistic, simple sentences. These were the ones that packed such a punch, I had to put the book down for a minute. Her lines and her words had nails as sharp as Romy’s and were unforgiving and raw and just so, so captivating. I am so used to being torn apart by poetic and detailed books, and I just wasn’t expecting to be hit so hard with these simple lines.

I think that’s what really hit me hard - the fact that I had no idea that it was coming. I had no idea how hard this book would hit me, or that I would still be thinking of Romy and her story almost a month later. I will only ever read a Courtney Summers book for the first time once, and I’m so glad that I got to read All the Rage. This woman slayed me with her words, and I just loved every minute of it. And now I'm just waiting till summer so that I can read the rest of her books! - Indigo

Thanks so much for your awesome post, Indigo! I think All the Rage is such a great one to start with. And you have so many amazing books in your future!

Stop by tomorrow when I try to put into words why I loved All the Rage!

- Ciara (Lost at Midnight)

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

ALL THE RAGE APRIL: Guest Post from Susanne


Hello, everyone!

Welcome back to ALL THE RAGE APRIL! We've had a bit of a break, but don't expect more of that. If the schedule holds there will be posts coming your way from now until the end of April! I can't wait to share them!

Today, I have a guest post from the lovely Susanne (@opheliet on Twitter!) on trauma and All the Rage. Check it out!

Once you've experienced trauma, sometimes it can seem as though a wall has been built, between you and everyone else. They're still living in their world, happy and shiny as though nothing bad has ever happened. Meanwhile, your world has changed forever and why can't everyone see that? It's a lonely place, behind that wall.

I'm pretty sure Courtney Summers is determined to knock it down.

Trauma isn't pretty. Its reactions aren't neat and tidy, able to be folded away when convenient. It often presents at the worst times, in the worst ways. It's a beast of a thing, able to cause horrific reactions that can be debilitating.

And, perhaps worst of all- it's ugly.

I can only imagine how uncomfortable some people must be at the honesty portrayed in All the Rage.

How downright “unlikeable” Romy might appear (though I quite like her a lot, myself). She's impulsive, and selfish, liable to snap your head off for seemingly no reason, with little ability to follow social cues or accept help that is right there in front of her so why won't she just take it?

That's how it looks when you see it from the protection of the wall.

But when you keep reading, get inside her head, and you are face to face with the monster that is PTSD, it looks a bit different. Selfishness is due to the desperate need to survive, impulsivity comes from a reckless place of not always caring if you make it to the next day. Emotions swing wildly from one extreme to the other, and often no one notices that you're halfway to hyperventilating because you got triggered ten minutes ago. Accepting help, even help that's right in front of you, doesn't even seem like a possibility when your brain is telling you that you don't deserve it, or when everyone seems dangerous.

Maybe Romy is unlikeable. Maybe that's because she doesn't much like herself. Maybe it's because girls don't have to be likeable to be relatable.

I've worked with dozens of girls who have experienced trauma- some with stories eerily close to Romy's. Their parents would often say to me, “When will she be better?” 


And in my head, this would translate to, “When can we go back to pretending this never happened?”

Trauma isn't comfortable. It's not something that settles well in your stomach, that lets you sleep easy at night. And books like this remind us of that. They shove it in your face- that our girls are out there and they're vulnerable, and hurt, and dying. Courtney Summers doesn't want you to be comfortable because nothing about this is comfortable.

Romy experiences things far too many girls do. And yet, people still try so very hard to ignore that we as a society have a problem with protecting our girls. It's too hard to look at the problem, so just push it away. Paint it up pretty, and we can all just pretend it never happened.

All the Rage is a vital book, not just for teenagers, but for everyone. Because the thing is, it may not be comfortable, or pretty, but it's happening every day. And we've got to stop looking the other way. We've got to stop waiting for things to just “get better” so we can go back to pretending it never happened.

And Romy Grey is one step in making that happen. -
Susanne

Thank you so much Susanne for your thoughtful guest post!

Stop by tomorrow for a guest review of All the Rage!

- Ciara (Lost at Midnight)

Friday, April 17, 2015

ALL THE RAGE APRIL: Guest Post by Emilie from Emilie's Book World


Hello, everyone!

Welcome to another day of ALL THE RAGE APRIL! Today, we have a guest post by Emilie from Emilie's Book World. In it, she talks about her angry feelings regarding how our society treats sexual assault and its victims. Without further ado...

When Ciara asked me if I wanted to be part of her All the Rage April feature, I said yes immediately even though I hadn’t read the book yet. I just have a lot to say when it comes to sexual assault. And having now read All the Rage, I have even more.

All the Rage pretty much embodies the way our society is making women and girls feel when it comes to sexual assault. In the book, Romy was raped. There is no doubt about it in her mind and in mine. But, when you ask the people in her small town, they have a different opinion. What they’ll tell you is that Romy wasn’t raped because she liked the guy who assaulted her, she even sent an e-mail to her best friend saying she dreamt about him. SO that makes what that guy did okay and gives everyone else the right to call Romy a slut or a whore.

In what world is that even close to okay? Could that attitude be even more messed up?

With All the Rage, Courtney Summers did a fantastic job showing how those attitudes can make the victims feel. The whole time I was reading, my heart was breaking for Romy and I wanted to yell at everyone who kept telling her she was lying about having been assaulted. And once I finished reading All the Rage, I wanted to give the book to everyone I know. Because maybe if enough people read it and realize how our society’s screwed up thinking is making all these girls feel, then maybe something might start to change.

At the end of the day, that’s what needs to happen. Society needs to start thinking differently about sexual assault. We need to stop telling girls that by dressing a certain way they can avoid being raped. That if they learn certain self-defense techniques they’ll be able to fight off a potential attacker. That when they behave a certain way, they’re inviting unwanted attention. Instead, we should be teaching people that rape is not okay, that sexual assault is not okay and that it just shouldn’t be done. Or we could even just stop making victims of sexual assault feel like they were asking for it because they wore a short skirt, they were alone at night in an unsafe area, or because they were dancing a certain way at a party. It doesn’t matter how it starts. The change just needs to happen somewhere.

I’m not idealistic or optimistic enough to think that a change like that is going to happen over night. But the way I see it, if enough people read All the Rage, and more books like it get written and read, something might finally start changing. - Emilie
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, Emilie!

ALL THE RAGE APRIL is off tomorrow but we'll be back soon with more guest and discussion posts!

- Ciara (Lost at Midnight)

Thursday, April 16, 2015

ALL THE RAGE APRIL: Guest Post by Kathy from A Glass of Wine


Hello, everyone!

Welcome back to ALL THE RAGE APRIL! If you missed my Q&A with Courtney Summers yesterday, be sure to check it out! Today on the blog, we have a brave guest post from the wonderful Kathy from A Glass of Wine about finding your voice. 

I'm going to give a mild trigger warning for this one, just in case.

This is probably the most personal blog post I've ever written. I had debated not writing it. However, I feel that this book, and this topic is that important. It also helps that I am sharing it on someone else’s blog. 

Ciara is hosting a wonderful month long event to celebrate All The Rage by Courtney Summers. If you've read any of her novels before you know how important, and searing her novels are. She prompts the tough questions and leaves you thinking long after you've finished reading. All The Rage is no exception.

Reading All The Rage took me back to a time when I was younger and in school. I am deliberately going to be vague and not mention my exact age. A guy I had been casually ‘dating’ had gone some where quieter to talk and be alone together. We started to kiss and make out a bit. It quickly became evident that he wanted things to progress much faster and further than I was ready for. Despite my saying no he kept trying to push the issue. Kept trying to take this further. Murmuring reassurances and almost flat out saying that we had been dating long enough and that I was being a tease. Luckily it never escalated too far, as two guys walked in and heard me say no and asked the guy what his problem was. 

The thing that stayed with me after that night was how my voice didn’t seem to matter. My no meant nothing. This thought however, was not instantaneous.  Instead I placed the blame on myself. I never even considered reporting what happened because in my mind he never raped me so why report it. What had happened to me wasn't that bad, right? So why cause a scene. His stance that  I ‘teased’ him was in the back of my mind.  He had called me frigid and expressed that I needed to lighten up and even mentioned knowing that I wasn't a virgin so what was my problem. I thought it was MY issue because of his words.

It took me so long to realize what happened was technically an assault. Someone was touching me without my consent after I had expressed my wishes for it to stop. After I had said no. It took way longer than it should have for me to stop seeing it was my fault.

This is why All The Rage is important. Society silences girls. It tries to shift them blame on them. What were you wearing? Why did you go there? Were you drinking? These questions are meant to diminish and take away someone’s right to have their voice heard and supported.

Courtney Summers wants to empower and give back that voice. She wants to encourage girls to have each other's backs. Nothing is worse than a girl silencing another. We need to support and lift each other and All The Rage spotlights that.

As someone her struggled to find her own voice again (and is obviously still struggling to talk about what happened) I think it’s incredibly important and this novel is one EVERYONE should read - both guys and girls alike. - Kathy
Thank you so much Kathy for telling your story! I appreciate you lending your voice to this important subject.

Make sure to stop by tomorrow for another guest post!

- Ciara (Lost at Midnight) 

Thursday, April 9, 2015

ALL THE RAGE APRIL: Guest Post by Kim from Pingwing's Bookshelf


Hello, lovely blog readers!

Welcome back to ALL THE RAGE APRIL! If this is your first time stopping by, check out the master list of posts from this month and catch-up on what you missed! Today we have our second guest post of the month, coming from a dear friend of mine (and fellow Ottawa Blogger!) Kim from Pingwing's Bookshelf. I love what Kim has to say here, and I hope you guys love it too.

After I finished reading All the Rage, I wanted to write something honest.

I’m honestly tired of women’s bodies being used against them. I’m tired of a woman’s personhood being ignored and being reduced to body parts. I’m tired of reading women’s stories, all heartfelt and some all-too familiar, only to have their experiences questioned, scrutinized, doubted, and discounted.

I’m tired of reading click-bait articles and their despicable comments. I’m honestly tired of reading the comments – ranging from hate-filled threats of bodily harm and death aimed at women, to less terrifying yet still infuriating trolling.

But I don’t stop reading. It could be so easy, too easy, to pretend that nothing outside of my own experience exists, and I don’t want to be wilfully blind. I am tired though of having a voice and being afraid to use it.

These are the things that were going through my mind as I read
All the Rage. There was so much about this book that resonated with me, e.g. Romy’s thoughts at times about not wanting a body, wishing she didn’t have one. I feel that way sometimes. Our bodies are so often not our own, and we see in this book how they are used against us.

I am a big fan of Courtney Summers’ books, but I know by now how intense they can be, how gritty and visceral, so I prepared myself going into this one.

In typical Courtney Summers fashion, this book’s honesty was heartbreaking. So much of All the Rage is too true and familiar. The portrayal of sexism, misogyny, rape culture, privilege, bullying, ‘mean girls’, and the wilful blindness and ignorance to these issues is infuriating and exhausting. This book’s portrayal of these issues had me nodding my head in recognition, and this recognition is heartbreaking. How can the things that happen in this book be real and true?

How can this be the lived experience for so many people? Why aren’t we all shocked and outraged? Why don’t we all care more?

And then the end - oh man, there's this thing at the end, at once so small yet so hugely representative of the problems in our society, that had me come as close as I ever have to throwing a book in anger and frustration. What makes it worse is that it comes after what I saw as a moment of hope, and then this thing that is so gut-wrenchingly accurate comes along and it just got to me.

I feel like this would have been a terrific book to read when I was in high school and discuss as a classroom full of teenagers. I mean, honestly, I want EVERYONE to read and discuss this book, but I couldn’t stop thinking about what I would have thought and said about this book and its ideas if I had read it as a teenager.

Part of what really stood out for me in this story is the way other girls participate in the bullying that Romy experiences. It was so real, and I wanted to reach into the book and shake these girls. It was enraging.

Tying everything together in 
All the Rage is the mystery of what happened to Romy the night of a big party, and what happened to her ex-friend Penny who, unlike Romy, never made it home after that night. I loved the mystery aspect of this book. It added an extra layer to the story that made for a gripping, tense read.

I love the way Courtney Summers writes. This may be, in my opinion, her best book yet. I am supremely biased in favour of her book
This is Not a Test, because there are zombies in it and I love zombie stories so much, but the way this book impacted me emotionally, the way I am still thinking about it so much after finishing it, the way I couldn’t put it down once I started reading, has me thinking that this could be my new favourite Courtney Summers book.

I absolutely recommend this book. It's a must-read for so many reasons! I wish I could make everyone read it and discuss it and recognize the importance of what the book is saying, because it shows that we are failing girls in so many ways.
 


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Check out Courtney Summers' #ToTheGirls campaign and support it on April 14, 2015. You can participate by writing and sharing your own message on social media.

You can purchase All the Rage via the links below, and for the time being, you can pre-order and receive your choice of a previously-released book by Courtney Summers for free! More info here.
- Kim from Pingwing's Bookshelf

Thank you for your guest post, Kim! I really appreciate you lending your voice for this amazing novel.

Stop by tomorrow, lovely readers! We have another guest post coming your way!

Find This Book: Amazon | Chapters/Indigo | The Book Depository 

- Ciara (Lost at Midnight)

Friday, April 3, 2015

ALL THE RAGE APRIL: Guest Post by A. C. Dillon


Hello, all!

Welcome to day three of ALL THE RAGE APRIL! Today, we have our first guest post of the month coming from A. C. Dillon. Here she talks about her own experiences and why All the Rage is important to her. I'm not going to give much more of an induction (I want to post to speak for itself) I'll only say it's a really powerful post guys, and I hope you'll take the time to read it.

**TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual Assault** 

When I was nineteen, I was sexually assaulted in my dorm room.

I was with a male friend of several years, who happened to be a former boyfriend as well (briefly).  We’d flirted off and on throughout the years, but it wasn’t serious; both of us were in relationships at that time, anyway. Not that it should matter.  We’d been drinking, as friends reuniting after several months do.  Not that it should matter.  Because he was a long-time friend, I thought nothing of shouting, “Oh, make me one too!” when he got up to mix another drink.

Half an hour later, I couldn’t hold myself upright.  I slid off the couch onto the floor.  I crawled upstairs to my room at some point.  I lost ninety minutes of my life. I was lucky, in that Alice Sebold sort of way: I woke up mid-assault and that startled him so badly, he fled.  Still disoriented and out of it, trapped in a delirium of drug-induced euphoria blended with violation and confusion, I crawled into bed, where my frantic girlfriend phoned me.  It was how I learned I’d lost so much time: she’d been calling me.  Repeatedly.

It took me three days to fully assimilate what had happened, to understand that he hadn’t take advantage of me while I was drunk and passed out (inexplicably, given my alcohol consumption).  It was so much worse, in my mind, because it had been far more premeditated than I’d wanted to believe. He’d drugged me, then assaulted me.  It took me just three minutes, based on my program of study (Psychology and Criminology), to decide not to report the incident.  Indeed, I chose to tell only a scant handful of friends, a family doctor and eventually, two professors.

Because in three minutes, I understood these truths about the world:  a) with no rape kit and no blood tests for drugs from that day, I had no physical evidence to support my allegations; b) my dating history with the assailant would immediately discredit me; c) rape victims seldom see any justice, and instead, are shamed and interrogated into submission; and d) even if somehow, with the odds completely stacked against me, he was charged and convicted, he’d see no real punishment.  On the other hand, reporting the assault meant I’d be forced to be re-victimized, over and over again in a police station, then again in court.  All the while, I would have to hear how a so-called “good Catholic boy and member of the Canadian Armed Forces” was “accused of terrible things.”

I knew all of this because a Criminology professor of mine had espoused these views of college women leading men on and ruining their lives during a class lecture.  A class I paid for.  I’d complained and eventually been forced to drop the course because of his punitive “revenge marking” (my identity was not protected by the Dean).  The professor continued to teach.

I stayed silent because I knew that in this world, my words meant nothing.  My pain would be shrugged away.  The assailant certainly wouldn’t confess; he’d flat-out denied wrong-doing in an email exchange after that night.  I was alone.

When I first read the synopsis for Courtney Summers’
All The Rage, I felt like I needed to find her and shake her hand, or even embrace her in gratitude.  Because someone needed to go there—to go beyond the experience of navigating the world as a survivor, and outright attack the thriving rape culture that feeds on coded language and misogyny, the culture that explains why every single female friend I have has experienced some sort of sexual violence or domestic violence — often both.  When I read the opening excerpt, I burst into tears and quietly cried at my computer.  Because the details may differ, but it happened to me.  Because it’s still happening—to our daughters, our sisters, our friends and coworkers.

Having read Courtney’s previous work, I know that she doesn’t flinch.  I know that she’s taken this book exactly where it needs to go.  And that makes me desperate to read it. Because inside of me, there is a nineteen-year-old woman, sitting in the dark on her dorm room floor, clutching a phone and trying to make the math add up to
anything but this. There is a twenty-year-old woman hiding in the bathroom stall of a mall, because she just saw him in the food court.  And there is a thirty-something woman sitting here now, rewinding the entire supposed friendship and realizing that she can trace back the history of a man and see the warning signs that eventually, he would take what the world was telling him he was entitled to—the same world that told her she wasn’t worth protecting from him.

I need to read it—but more importantly, you do.  You.  And you.  And him.  And her.

Because until we all can see the ugly truth in the shadows, we’ll never be able to dismantle it in the light.
- A. C. Dillon

Thank you so so much A. C. for being brave enough to share your story.

- Ciara (Lost at Midnight) 

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Guest Post: "The Girl You Know" by Kelly Jensen (+ GIVEAWAY)


Hi, all!


Today, I have a very powerful guest post from the fantastic Kelly Jensen. I'm not going to say too much about it, but rather let Kelly do the talking. It is such a great post, and such an important one. I really hope you'll take the time to read it.
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The girls you meet in a Courtney Summers book are not pretty. They’re not nice. And they are not shy about either of those things.

But these are the girls you and I both know.

Earlier this fall, Courtney wrote an excellent piece called writing for girls, and in it, she talks about how it was hard to get her work published in the first place because she doesn’t write the easily digestible female main character. She doesn’t force her characters to get through their challenges with an easy way out -- they have to fight all the way through it, and many times, that fight is far from pretty. She doesn’t write girls who follow the rules or submit to the social standards of what it means to be a girl and “take it.”

In Cracked Up to Be, Parker is biting. She’s easy to dislike and write off as the kind of girl you don’t want to get to know. But this is her appeal: she doesn’t want to let you get to know her. She’s burning inside, secrets eating her alive. Parker takes to snark -- a quality that, had she been a boy, rather than a girl, wouldn’t lead to her being “unlikable” or ugly, but perhaps instead “charming.” 

Parker drops out of the public eye and seeks opportunities to get away, to essentially be unseen and forgotten. Her destructive habits, on the surface, don’t impact other people. They’re meant to harm just her. They’re meant to dull down the ache she has internally. She is not, by traditional views, a “strong” character. She is broken and irredeemable.

Of course, we know this isn’t true. We know by the end of the book why she’s taken to such internal torment and why she lashes out the way that she does. Her coping mechanisms are simply that: means of working through her anguish, making mental sense of what happened, and figuring out her own role in everything that went down.
 

It’s interesting to consider how Parker might be read were she not a girl. If Parker had a penis, would he endure the same kind of reaction from other characters? Would people consider him broken for how he chose to deal with what was eating him up? Or would they accept that something was going on with him, let him have his business and give him space, then readily welcome him back into the fold?

How would readers consider Parker if Parker were a he?
 

When Regina’s put into a situation where she’s a victim of sexual assault at the hands of her best friend’s boyfriend, she’s immediately labeled the problem in Some Girls Are. There’s no jury here, no opportunity for Regina to state her case. She’s the criminal, not the victim. But unlike Parker, Regina’s coping mechanism isn’t internal. It’s external. She’s out for blood in the same way her former friends are.

Regina is a girl with anger, and she’s not afraid to show that anger. So often, girls are told that anger is an emotion they can’t feel and can’t show. That it’s not becoming of them. That’s why Regina’s actions -- her external expression of those feelings -- are deemed unlikable. And even when she’s pushed to the brink, locked in a closet with the very boy who set off the chain of reactions that sent her from top-of-the-food-chain to the bottom, many find it hard to sympathize with her because of how she’s behaved up until that point. Being put in that closet removes her from the situations she’s causing externally and forces her to instead deal with those internal demons (in more ways than one).
 

Is she worthy of that sympathy? Of course. She was worthy in chapter one. She was worthy throughout, even with her own aggressive behavior. Her actions aren’t right, and they impact a LOT of people. She is her own problem in many ways. But because she’s a girl, she’s saddled with unfair baggage that says there’s something wrong with how she’s feeling and expressing herself. She’s angry, hurt, and desperate, but she’s also entirely unlikable and can’t be redeemed because of those things.

Regina recast as a Reggie instead would probably make her behavior less unlikable. It might be understandable, even encouraged. Because a boy’s gotta stand up for himself and his reputation.

A girl though. She should just take it.

Grief is ugly to those facing loss, as well as those trying to be there for the person experiencing that grief. But grief isn’t necessarily debilitating -- it manifests in complex ways. For Eddie in Fall for Anything, grief emerges from a sense of wanting to know why. Why is it her father chose to end his own life? Why didn’t he tell anyone he was considering this option? Why didn’t he get help?
 

It also springs from the questions Eddie has about whether she herself played a role at all in his decision.
 

Eddie’s grief is selfish. But all grief is. Except, what makes Eddie hard to swallow to those in her life, as well many of those reading her story, is that she pursues that desire to know answers to questions that don’t exist. She pursues the mysterious boy who claims to know things. She pushes away her hurting mother, as well as her mother’s friend. Eddie doesn’t sit around nor pause to consider how her own actions would impact anyone else’s.

But is she wholly selfish for this or is this selfishness considered such because she’s not yielding to niceness? Or because she’s not putting everyone before herself? And while there’s no doubt Milo is a great guy in this story, it’s impossible not to wonder whether that’s because he’s easier to take than Eddie. He’s far less intense.

Consider Eddie as a boy. Would he be selfish then, or would he be a hero for seeking that closure?
 

Is Sloane selfish for wanting to kill herself in This Is Not A Test? For many readers -- a startling number, in fact -- that death would have been the best resolution to her story. Despite years of suffering at the hands of her father’s abuse, both physically and (perhaps more painfully) mentally, she’s too frequently viewed as whiny and worthless. Even after being abandoned by her sister and having a promise of getting out together be broken, many see Sloane’s anguish as silly. Trite.

Sloane’s own personal history should have no bearing on how she reacts when everything in the world changes. Except of course it does -- you can’t unwrite your own past. When you’ve lived a life where following the rules and being obedient is a requirement and suddenly you’re tossed into a world without those rules, you have no internal cues from which to make sense of things. And if you’re Sloane and your plans for your own death were disrupted, all you can do is hope that you aren’t a burden onto other people in the way you’ve been a burden to your own family.

Girls are told they should be bright and positive. That they should hope. That when something bad happens to them, they should pick up the pieces and move on. Or more -- they’re told they’re never actually broken, that there are no pieces to “pick up,” that whatever they’re feeling or experiencing or thinking inside is self-pity and isn’t real or justifiable.

That if they feel anything other than rainbows and butterflies, if they appear any way other than ready to serve and submit to those around them, they might as well die because what’s the point? Girls should be secondary characters in their own stories. If a girl wants what other people have -- to feel good, to feel loved, to feel like she belongs no matter what -- then she is ungrateful for even being given an opportunity to life.

Would we even consider a boy being in the same position as Sloane? And if so, what would that look like? How would the other people stuck with him during the zombie apocalypse react to his behavior? Would he be told that his life would be better if he were dead instead of actively feeling what it was he felt? Would he deserve the moments of affection and care others give him?
 

All girls have witnessed something that’s impacted them.
 

All girls have been victims of bullying on some level -- for reasons out of their own control.

All girls have felt anger.

All girls have experienced grief and the need to find answers to questions they have.

All girls have felt alone.
 

Courtney Summers writes the girls we know because she writes the girls we are sometimes: ugly, confusing, frustrating, seeking, desiring, breaking, bending, taking, and making. We’re all complex and dynamic, unlikable and brutal. We’re all agents in our own lives, rather than passive actors here for others around us.
 

Our stories don’t have solid endings -- even when we’ve come to the conclusion of a series of events, there are often things left unresolved, open, with the possibility for more, whether that “more” is from a place of hope or not.
There’s no need to slap a bow on top of a package that’s complicated; instead, these stories shake the boxes, untie the ribbon, and opens the box.

These are stories about being a girl and fighting against everything we’re told isn’t allowed in order to be a girl.

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Thank you SO MUCH Kelly for that beautiful post. It's such an important topic, and one I think gets brushed aside all too often. I've said it before and I'll know doubt say it again but, to me, the characters in Courtney's books are so incredibly real. They are real characters facing real issues. Not pretty, happy-ending issues, but rather the painful, brutal problems people face every day. Her books are important. Powerful. Real. And need to be read.

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